Sacrifice a virtue?
This's the third month of thinking about the thing. I can't find a way out to leave it behind. Should I stop talking to a person? This person wrest me out of swamp I was in. There's tons of things to talk about this person. I can't thank enough for what this person have done for me. There's times when I was completely lost, this person drag me out from foggy, cloudy nights. I was in my shell, my small world. I was too afraid of facing with real world. Now I am not in my small world, thanks to this person. Am I regretful of being dragged out of my shell? No, definitely not.
I feel like secured whenever this person is around. This person is the only one whom I could count on. However, when I am around this person, I feel like i cause troubles, make this person down, put in difficult situations, take the only happiness this person's looking for. My mind is saying leave but my heart says no. My mind made its choice but I can't seem to let go thinking of things this person's done. Is leaving an only option? Is sacrificing a virtue?
Well, I am done with E13. I wish I could be my version of Teacher Jung and Kang. They're both fitting to each other. Teacher Jung is a type of teacher who'd cry for hours if she even hurts an ant. On the other hand, teacher Kang would always be around like a stiff and rigit tree, a tree where you can throw yourself on.
At least, once in your life there'll be a moment when you want to die. It's not wrong to think that you want to die... But, it's a great thing to endure it and to overcome your desire to die.
You've gone over a big mountain every single day every tiny moment. Even, I am not around you, i will never let you leave from my mind. never. I will be there whenever you need me or need somebody to talk to
I love you
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